REALIZATION

“I don’t know what the fish, am I doing in this dammed world!” I wondered. He has got one gf, she’d got one, he’d got one –it seemed that except for me everyone got what he/she wanted i.e. someone to care for, respect, love or draw inspiration from! Only I, like an idiot was single in the stupid world.
I felt a piercing sensation on my neck. I turned back to see an infant-like thing with white wings floating in the air, with a bow and arrow in his hand. It disappeared. There was no wound but the pain was real. Things were happening too fast for me to understand. I went to my mom in the kitchen. “Mom my neck is paining severely”, I said. “Then go, get some rest”, she said thinking that this was one of my excuses to skip studies. I felt frustrated. I went to the veranda and stood there silently. It was dark outside.
Just then, again, I noticed that infant-like thing in my garden. I moved out and started to follow it. The “thing” was heading out of my housing campus or precisely-flying out my housing campus. I followed it. It went straight to the middle of the main road and disappeared there. All I remember after that, is- a honking sound form behind and B-A-N-G – I was down on the ground. Within a fraction of a second, every memorable event of my life flashed through my eyes-my family, friends, school, dance, birthdays, crushes, the silly poems I used to write for them and what not! And then It was all over……………………………..
…………………………………..the harsh sunlight woke me up. I was still lying on the middle of the road, at that very place. Though there were few spots of blood around me, but I was unharmed and did not have a single scratch on my body. I felt fresh. I rose from the road and returned home. It was locked. God knew where they had gone. I shouted in front of my neighbour’s house but received no response. Frustrated. Having nowhere else to go I made my way towards my school.
When I reached in front of the school gate, I could see the assembly going on. I had a feeling that the people were not noticing me. The school guards also did not notice me. It seemed that I had become invisible. Nobody could feel my presence or see me. When I entered the basketball court (where the assembly was going on), I could see my classmates weeping. There was a feeling of sorrow in their eyes. My previous so called “crushes” also had tears rolling down their eyes. When I turned towards the Principal, I was horrified to see my photograph beside the stage with a white garland on it. What the f***???, they were performing a funeral of mine!!! I felt helpless. I screamed out my presence, but no one could hear me. I realized that it was not me who was screaming but it was my soul.I didn’t want to die so soon.
After the assembly everyone went to their respective classes. None of my subject teachers taught anything that day, in my class. They remained silent. My friends were quiet. I screamed the whole day long, but no one could hear me. Soon the school got over and every one left. Then the “infant-like thing” appeared once again. This time it approached me and asked, “How do you feel now? After dying?”.
I realized that my friends loved me, they cared for me, respected me-my teachers loved me and my family…family??…… Where were they??
“They are in the hospital mourning over your death”, explained that “thing”. I realized that there were so many people who loved me that I didn’t require any other form of love.
“Can’t I get the love back??” I cried in despair.
“I am cupid”, he said-“My work is to unite all those who love each other. Go to the hospital and enter your body and you will be alive once again”……..”And don’t worry I will be sending a princess for you soon.” Without waiting for any further explanation I ran to the hospital…..
…….In the hospital, my mom was beside my body, which was being taken for post mortem. I was declared dead a few hours ago. My dad and my brother were also weeping intensely.My body was kept under custody. I entered my body. Now I could feel the pain which the accident imparted to my body.
I could not speak nor open my eyes. So I just wiggled my fingers a little. “He is still alive”’ screamed, my mom, and the doctor close to me, came rushing. I wiggled my fingers again and the doctor softly spoke the words “Miracle”.
My Dad grasped my hand and said-“Thank god!!I knew that you will be back.” Doctors called it the “miracle of science” but my heart knew the truth.
“Thank you Cupid”, my heart said.





©Abhishek Thakur.